subbiedi

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This is my journal on studying the bdsm lifestyle........I have always been intrigued by bdsm and wwweeelll, :P what can I say lol my curiostiy has gotten the better of me :D


feel free to post things to help me learn ;) If I like it I'll post it, If I don't I wont hahaha
or correct me if I write something wrong

I am a 38yr old female, living in New Zealand and after someone gave me a lil taste (3mths) of a long distance D/s relationship ....
I want more :D
This is where I come to let myself out of the dark hidden place, that I lock myself into during the daytime, to explore my desires that I can not share with anyone else...

This is where the real me comes to play and have fun

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cheers!
Good Morning My Sexies:*
My gosh! :( I am sssooo flippen tired. (groans) again I was too aroused:( I couldn’t stop thinking about my session with Mistress and Sir. Which made me soaking wet! sssooo then I started playing with myself…:( for two hours!!!! (groans some more!) I didn’t get to sleep till after 2am:(
and I had another thought last night….today we are doing swedish massage(new topic)….I am fucken hoping we don’t have to massage each other, cringing at the thought of explaining my bruises to my classmates!
Hopefully it will be theory in the morning and then if we do massage it will probably be in the afternoon and then I thought I will offer to massage>:)
Thats the plan!:):):)

Good Morning My Sexies:*

My gosh! :( I am sssooo flippen tired. (groans) again I was too aroused:( I couldn’t stop thinking about my session with Mistress and Sir. Which made me soaking wet! sssooo then I started playing with myself…:( for two hours!!!! (groans some more!) I didn’t get to sleep till after 2am:(

and I had another thought last night….today we are doing swedish massage(new topic)….I am fucken hoping we don’t have to massage each other, cringing at the thought of explaining my bruises to my classmates!

Hopefully it will be theory in the morning and then if we do massage it will probably be in the afternoon and then I thought I will offer to massage>:)

Thats the plan!:):):)

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mmmmmm one day subbie would love to fuck in this postition
night, night My Sexy Followers:*!
subbie is all worn out and is sssooo tired.  I was too aroused last night and couldn’t sleep much. The down falls of subbie being horney, is she can’t wind down(feels like I am on speed).
I am going off to bed now mmmmmm but first I will play, cause I need to orgasim so I can drift off to sleep:)
I thoroughly enjoyed my night, last night, with Sir and Mistress and I feel like such a lucky and spoilt subbie, to be given the opportunity to serve and please them!:):):)
Another thing that I liked last night, was when Mistress put some ice on my arse, after Sir had been flogging me and my arse was lovely and red!! it felt really nice, which was weird, as normally I hate cold things touching me!
ciao for now
di:)

mmmmmm one day subbie would love to fuck in this postition

night, night My Sexy Followers:*!

subbie is all worn out and is sssooo tired.  I was too aroused last night and couldn’t sleep much. The down falls of subbie being horney, is she can’t wind down(feels like I am on speed).

I am going off to bed now mmmmmm but first I will play, cause I need to orgasim so I can drift off to sleep:)

I thoroughly enjoyed my night, last night, with Sir and Mistress and I feel like such a lucky and spoilt subbie, to be given the opportunity to serve and please them!:):):)

Another thing that I liked last night, was when Mistress put some ice on my arse, after Sir had been flogging me and my arse was lovely and red!! it felt really nice, which was weird, as normally I hate cold things touching me!

ciao for now

di:)

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subbie: Hi Sir:) how was your day? subbie’s throat is sore from your cock!:D
Sir W: My day was good thanks, well you must need more throat practice then. That will work well for the house of 2

subbie: Hi Sir:) how was your day? subbie’s throat is sore from your cock!:D

Sir W: My day was good thanks, well you must need more throat practice then. That will work well for the house of 2

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Sir W: yes, put me now and I will ring her now to accept
subbie: ok thank you my Sir:)
I have updated my profile Sir:) does it met your approval Sir?
Sir W: yes it does, Mistress said thank you too

Sir W: yes, put me now and I will ring her now to accept

subbie: ok thank you my Sir:)

I have updated my profile Sir:) does it met your approval Sir?

Sir W: yes it does, Mistress said thank you too

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written about 2 hours ago:

hullo hows the bum mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm looks nice. i read your journal and we are very pleased you had fun and yes you can get to lick my cum from your misstress’s cunt. You better update your status on here to pet of us both and in service to us and submissive and we will update ours about you. i hope you appreciate your chance with us and your service to us also

subbiedi 38F

Wellington, New Zealand

written about 1 hour ago:

mmmmm my bum isn’t as sore as I thought it was going to be:) it is nice and warm and tingles a lil, and makes me think of you and Mistress:) I will look at my back later too, I am thinking there must be some marks on there too, from the lil ichy, tingly sensation that I get every now and again.

(giggles) yes Sir, your whore did have fun, thank you!:)

mmmmmmm Thank you very much Sir, I would like that, thinking of licking your cum out of Mistress’s cunt gives me intense butterflies My Sir and excites me greatly and makes my cunt pulsate:):):)

My Sir, I can’t put Mistress on my updated status:(, as she is not on my friends list…I have sent her a friends request…but she will have to accept it, before I can put her on my status(only a list of my friends come up)

shall I still change my status and put you or wait till I can do both of you together?

Yes My Sir your whore, Pet and submissive is very honoured and grateful to be given this opportunity to serve and please you and Mistress!:*

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This looks interesting!!
This morning on my drive home I was thinking about things, mainly the session I had just had. Thinking about what I liked and what I didn’t like
I don’t really like the wand, I think something smaller, like this would be nice…I think the wand is too big for me. I like around my cunt opening, as well as just inside my cunt opening and inner labia’s being stimulated:) but not direct contact on my clit, as my clit is too sensitive, unless my clit is really really wet and is just lightly touched.
another thing that subbie liked about last night, was licking and sucking Mistress’s tits, mmmmm Mistress has beautiful tits! and I love giving them attention:)
mmmmmm I would like to try licking and sucking Sir’s cum out of Mistress’s cunt!(nods head excitedly) please may I?

This looks interesting!!

This morning on my drive home I was thinking about things, mainly the session I had just had. Thinking about what I liked and what I didn’t like

I don’t really like the wand, I think something smaller, like this would be nice…I think the wand is too big for me. I like around my cunt opening, as well as just inside my cunt opening and inner labia’s being stimulated:) but not direct contact on my clit, as my clit is too sensitive, unless my clit is really really wet and is just lightly touched.

another thing that subbie liked about last night, was licking and sucking Mistress’s tits, mmmmm Mistress has beautiful tits! and I love giving them attention:)

mmmmmm I would like to try licking and sucking Sir’s cum out of Mistress’s cunt!(nods head excitedly) please may I?

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spanktheslave asked: Thanks for the follow! I really appreciate it.

You are most welcome!:)

thank you for your follow;)

kittiesnlollies asked: So glad! Been following your adventures, keep on with the journey :)

:* Thank you J****!:)

I am enjoying my journey so far, finding more out about myself, what turns me on and arouses me and what I like:)

(giggles)

(giggles)

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Mistress made subbie blush last night, when Mistress said that subbie was pretty:) that was very kind of Mistress:)
The biggest thing that impacted subbie last night was, after I had knelt on Sir’s doorstep and said my greeting(which I was so nervous, my brain went blank and I fucked up…then Sir said he couldn’t hear me, so I had to repeat it….I groaned and sighed, but did as I was told. This time I said it word for word), Sir then gave subbie a snuggle and talked to me softly, while snuggling me, telling me not to be nervous and that he wanted me to enjoy the experience. Which calmed subbie down and made subbie feel better:)
I forgot to say, that I also like it when Sir fucks Mistress and I get to lick her clit, while they fuck and clean Mistress’s cunt after she cums and then clean her cum off Sir’s cock! mmmm(licks lips and bites bottom lip mmmmmm yummy!)
oh,oh and rimming mmmm can’t forget that! I don’t like scat play but rimming wow, now thats something else! I really like rimming Sir and Mistress:)

Mistress made subbie blush last night, when Mistress said that subbie was pretty:) that was very kind of Mistress:)

The biggest thing that impacted subbie last night was, after I had knelt on Sir’s doorstep and said my greeting(which I was so nervous, my brain went blank and I fucked up…then Sir said he couldn’t hear me, so I had to repeat it….I groaned and sighed, but did as I was told. This time I said it word for word), Sir then gave subbie a snuggle and talked to me softly, while snuggling me, telling me not to be nervous and that he wanted me to enjoy the experience. Which calmed subbie down and made subbie feel better:)

I forgot to say, that I also like it when Sir fucks Mistress and I get to lick her clit, while they fuck and clean Mistress’s cunt after she cums and then clean her cum off Sir’s cock! mmmm(licks lips and bites bottom lip mmmmmm yummy!)

oh,oh and rimming mmmm can’t forget that! I don’t like scat play but rimming wow, now thats something else! I really like rimming Sir and Mistress:)

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This picture depicts how subbie felt last night!
subbie’s overall opinion of last night….I had lots of fun, I did feel like a spoilt, greedy subbie, getting so much attention! but I loved it anyway:)
Sir spoke with subbie last night, before we started playing, that him and Mistress are looking for a pet(subbie has been curious and wanting to experience being a pet for a couple), and that it will be 50/50 between the two of them. Because Sir works a lot, he will not always be able to give subbie the attention that she desires and needs, so most communication will be done with Mistress
(heehee Sir hit subbie up. about her comment of Sir having no sense of humour (giggles) I know Sir has a sense of humour,  subbie just likes giving Sir shit, to see what his reaction will be.
Last night Sir told subbie that he knows she likes pushing boundaries but she doesn’t have to.
subbie has decided she would like to be Sir’s and Mistress’s pet!:)

This picture depicts how subbie felt last night!

subbie’s overall opinion of last night….I had lots of fun, I did feel like a spoilt, greedy subbie, getting so much attention! but I loved it anyway:)

Sir spoke with subbie last night, before we started playing, that him and Mistress are looking for a pet(subbie has been curious and wanting to experience being a pet for a couple), and that it will be 50/50 between the two of them. Because Sir works a lot, he will not always be able to give subbie the attention that she desires and needs, so most communication will be done with Mistress

(heehee Sir hit subbie up. about her comment of Sir having no sense of humour (giggles) I know Sir has a sense of humour,  subbie just likes giving Sir shit, to see what his reaction will be.

Last night Sir told subbie that he knows she likes pushing boundaries but she doesn’t have to.

subbie has decided she would like to be Sir’s and Mistress’s pet!:)

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wwweeellllll here we go My Sexy Followers, subbies first, not blurred:P pic of her cunt!
I am really trying to show off my arse and how satisfyingly red it is:):):) like I said greedy subbie here! This is from spankings by both Sir and Mistress and floggings mmmmm Sir gave subbie some really nice ones last night! 
At first when Sir was flogging me, I started laughing, I didn’t really mean to, it just slipped out….I had the spider gag in my mouth…but I was thinking, what the heck, is that as hard as you’ve got…I am sure my daughter could hit harder than that! which then made me laugh.  I started wiggling my bum, trying to encourage Sir to hit me harder mmmmm which Sir did(drools) My gosh I was sssooo flippen aroused, I was in heaven…I do like it when it stings and the heat I feel, from the point of contact, goes straight to my cunt and turns me on.
oh, oh and I liked the pegs mmmmmm on the back of my shoulders and neck and my inner thighs. At first I didn’t feel the ones on my cunt, but when they were taken off mmmmm then I felt them and it was nice and painful! A lil bit of pain is always a delightful sensation:):):)
Last night was the most I have been aroused sexually with anyone. mmmmmm 
on a side note…..Sir your after care sux:P I would fire you, but I am willing to give you a second chance:P (giggles) >:) muahahahaha!!! you are just lucky subbie likes you:P
I suppose I better not be too harsh on Sir(he did have work, early that day), and he did let me sleep in his bed with him and Mistress(a luxury I will not be getting next time, when we go away, I will be sleeping in a cage) and Sir did put a blankie down, for subbie to kneel on, when she knelt on his doorstep and said her greeting and Sir did put the blankie on the chest for subbie, to get down on all fours, when Sir put her arms and legs in the stocks. :P sssooo with all of those things Sir, subbie will forgive you, for not giving her an after session snuggle:P hhhmmm am I pushing buttons yet Sir? 
Mistress is good with aftercare, she snuggled with subbie in bed and stroked my hair(which subbie loves) it makes me feel nice and cared for. Mistress and I talked together and played, when Sir went to bed early (because he had work the next day). In the morning we talked some more, while Sir was at work…then I helped Mistress clean the toys that I had used, had a couple of cuppa’s, said goodbye and left to come home
Sir and Mistress have invited subbie to be their pet and go away with them, not this weekend coming but next weekend. It is Sir’s birthday on that Friday, then we will be leaving early Saturday to go to http://www.nzstays.co.nz/Bay-of-plenty-region/Tauranga/ALTERNATIVE-BDSM-HOMESTAY-BED-AND-BREAKFAST-8385.aspx and coming back Monday mmmmmm subbie is excited!!!

wwweeellllll here we go My Sexy Followers, subbies first, not blurred:P pic of her cunt!

I am really trying to show off my arse and how satisfyingly red it is:):):) like I said greedy subbie here! This is from spankings by both Sir and Mistress and floggings mmmmm Sir gave subbie some really nice ones last night! 

At first when Sir was flogging me, I started laughing, I didn’t really mean to, it just slipped out….I had the spider gag in my mouth…but I was thinking, what the heck, is that as hard as you’ve got…I am sure my daughter could hit harder than that! which then made me laugh.  I started wiggling my bum, trying to encourage Sir to hit me harder mmmmm which Sir did(drools) My gosh I was sssooo flippen aroused, I was in heaven…I do like it when it stings and the heat I feel, from the point of contact, goes straight to my cunt and turns me on.

oh, oh and I liked the pegs mmmmmm on the back of my shoulders and neck and my inner thighs. At first I didn’t feel the ones on my cunt, but when they were taken off mmmmm then I felt them and it was nice and painful! A lil bit of pain is always a delightful sensation:):):)

Last night was the most I have been aroused sexually with anyone. mmmmmm 

on a side note…..Sir your after care sux:P I would fire you, but I am willing to give you a second chance:P (giggles) >:) muahahahaha!!! you are just lucky subbie likes you:P

I suppose I better not be too harsh on Sir(he did have work, early that day), and he did let me sleep in his bed with him and Mistress(a luxury I will not be getting next time, when we go away, I will be sleeping in a cage) and Sir did put a blankie down, for subbie to kneel on, when she knelt on his doorstep and said her greeting and Sir did put the blankie on the chest for subbie, to get down on all fours, when Sir put her arms and legs in the stocks. :P sssooo with all of those things Sir, subbie will forgive you, for not giving her an after session snuggle:P hhhmmm am I pushing buttons yet Sir? 

Mistress is good with aftercare, she snuggled with subbie in bed and stroked my hair(which subbie loves) it makes me feel nice and cared for. Mistress and I talked together and played, when Sir went to bed early (because he had work the next day). In the morning we talked some more, while Sir was at work…then I helped Mistress clean the toys that I had used, had a couple of cuppa’s, said goodbye and left to come home

Sir and Mistress have invited subbie to be their pet and go away with them, not this weekend coming but next weekend. It is Sir’s birthday on that Friday, then we will be leaving early Saturday to go to http://www.nzstays.co.nz/Bay-of-plenty-region/Tauranga/ALTERNATIVE-BDSM-HOMESTAY-BED-AND-BREAKFAST-8385.aspx and coming back Monday mmmmmm subbie is excited!!!

another two things ticked off my i wanna try list!
mmmmm i especially like the anal hook, which Sir attached by rope(I think, couldn’t see it) to my hair. I like the way depending on how I position my head and the posture of my back. to how intensely it penetrates my arse.
Spider gags have always looked sexy to me, when I first wore it, I was trying to put my head up, to make my drool run down the back of my throat….but once Mistress got into playing with me…I was enjoying myself so much that drool was running out of my mouth and all down my tits…Last night I found you can not talk inherently with spider gags! subbie ended up giving up trying to talk…though I did manage to get an “orange” to come out nice and clear:)
I also got to try a blindfold, while in stocks mmmmm Mistress spanks just as nice as Sir does! mmmmmm I was feeling like such a greedy subbie last night…all that attention just for me, it was wonderful!:P
aaannnddd I got to do my first worshipping of boots mmmmm Sir asked subbie to clean Mistress’s boots, with her tongue, which subbie did like and turned subbie on. subbie made sure she cleaned them soles and all:)
Originally I was wondering how Mistress was going to be with me, because subbie had been told that Sir and Mistress use to be play partners, and subbie was wondering, if it was going to be awkward and was Mistress going to be mean to subbie and take shit out on her.
subbie had nothing to worry about….Mistress is lovely, sexy and beautiful and has the personality to go with it:) I felt really comfortable with Mistress and Sir, I like playing with them both mmmmmm Mistress cums alot(which turns subbie on!) subbie likes helping Mistress to cum and then I like cleaning Mistress’s cunt juices up with my tongue(subbie loves to be helpful and of use) mmmmm I like it when Sir holds my head down on Mistress’s cunt and pushes his hand down on my head, pushing my face deep into her cunt. I also like it when Mistress cums and I feel her cunt juices gush into my mouth mmmmmm Mistress tastes yummy! I also like it when Mistress pushes my head down on Sir’s cock and holds my head down(yes, unbelievable I finally got to have Sir’s cock in my mouth for the first time mmmmmm) I like it when Mistress pushes my head up and down on Sir’s cock, it turns me on:) 

another two things ticked off my i wanna try list!

mmmmm i especially like the anal hook, which Sir attached by rope(I think, couldn’t see it) to my hair. I like the way depending on how I position my head and the posture of my back. to how intensely it penetrates my arse.

Spider gags have always looked sexy to me, when I first wore it, I was trying to put my head up, to make my drool run down the back of my throat….but once Mistress got into playing with me…I was enjoying myself so much that drool was running out of my mouth and all down my tits…Last night I found you can not talk inherently with spider gags! subbie ended up giving up trying to talk…though I did manage to get an “orange” to come out nice and clear:)

I also got to try a blindfold, while in stocks mmmmm Mistress spanks just as nice as Sir does! mmmmmm I was feeling like such a greedy subbie last night…all that attention just for me, it was wonderful!:P

aaannnddd I got to do my first worshipping of boots mmmmm Sir asked subbie to clean Mistress’s boots, with her tongue, which subbie did like and turned subbie on. subbie made sure she cleaned them soles and all:)

Originally I was wondering how Mistress was going to be with me, because subbie had been told that Sir and Mistress use to be play partners, and subbie was wondering, if it was going to be awkward and was Mistress going to be mean to subbie and take shit out on her.

subbie had nothing to worry about….Mistress is lovely, sexy and beautiful and has the personality to go with it:) I felt really comfortable with Mistress and Sir, I like playing with them both mmmmmm Mistress cums alot(which turns subbie on!) subbie likes helping Mistress to cum and then I like cleaning Mistress’s cunt juices up with my tongue(subbie loves to be helpful and of use) mmmmm I like it when Sir holds my head down on Mistress’s cunt and pushes his hand down on my head, pushing my face deep into her cunt. I also like it when Mistress cums and I feel her cunt juices gush into my mouth mmmmmm Mistress tastes yummy! I also like it when Mistress pushes my head down on Sir’s cock and holds my head down(yes, unbelievable I finally got to have Sir’s cock in my mouth for the first time mmmmmm) I like it when Mistress pushes my head up and down on Sir’s cock, it turns me on:)