subbiedi

# NSFW........
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Nothing here is mine.....unless stated.....

This is my journal on studying the bdsm lifestyle........I have always been intrigued by bdsm and wwweeelll, :P what can I say lol my curiostiy has gotten the better of me :D


feel free to post things to help me learn ;) If I like it I'll post it, If I don't I wont hahaha
or correct me if I write something wrong

I am a 38yr old female, living in New Zealand and after someone gave me a lil taste (3mths) of a long distance D/s relationship ....
I want more :D
This is where I come to let myself out of the dark hidden place, that I lock myself into during the daytime, to explore my desires that I can not share with anyone else...

This is where the real me comes to play and have fun

If you want a private answer to your message please put (private) on it so I know
cheers!
Good Morning My Sexies:*!
hhhmmm subbie loves fingers in her mouth. 
:( I texted Mistress twice yesterday and she didn’t reply:( I hope she is alright!:(

Good Morning My Sexies:*!

hhhmmm subbie loves fingers in her mouth. 

:( I texted Mistress twice yesterday and she didn’t reply:( I hope she is alright!:(

(Source: , via youaremydirtiestfantasy)

 mmmmm I love nipple clamps!
Nite nite My Sexies:*!
Tomorrow at school, I am doing Swedish massage…learning the horse and archer stances and the movements.

 mmmmm I love nipple clamps!

Nite nite My Sexies:*!

Tomorrow at school, I am doing Swedish massage…learning the horse and archer stances and the movements.

(Source: cum4syouare, via daddystigerlily)

Mmmmmm looking forward to doing this with Mistress and Sir!:) subbie likes licking Mistress’s arse and subbie loves watching Sir fuck Mistress as long as subbie gets to play with Mistress while Sir does!.                        
hhhmmm my cunt pulsates just thinking of playing with Mistress and Sir again:) 

Mmmmmm looking forward to doing this with Mistress and Sir!:) subbie likes licking Mistress’s arse and subbie loves watching Sir fuck Mistress as long as subbie gets to play with Mistress while Sir does!.                        

hhhmmm my cunt pulsates just thinking of playing with Mistress and Sir again:) 

(via analgirls)

ooooh somebody looks like they are in twabble! I think punishment is due!!:) what a naughty, bad!, bad! slut!!
Sir slaps my face(hard) when I do not swallow him deep enough…what would you do to this slut My Sir? just curious

ooooh somebody looks like they are in twabble! I think punishment is due!!:) what a naughty, bad!, bad! slut!!

Sir slaps my face(hard) when I do not swallow him deep enough…what would you do to this slut My Sir? just curious

(Source: cumsblr, via granporc)

and now is my time:) to find my thing for myself:)

and now is my time:) to find my thing for myself:)

(via bekkiboo2388)

:)

:)

(via virtuallydaddy)

We are going to need a picture of your cage, and preferably with you in it! Have a great weekend! 
— dunebuster
(giggles) subbie doesn’t like having photos taken of her, I always look so dorky in them!

We are going to need a picture of your cage, and preferably with you in it! Have a great weekend! 

— dunebuster

(giggles) subbie doesn’t like having photos taken of her, I always look so dorky in them!

(Source: intothegreatbelow, via btorsten)

mmmmm subbie hopes Sir will treat her like this next weekend. :) Sir did say I need to practice my throat skills:) mmmmmmm

mmmmm subbie hopes Sir will treat her like this next weekend. :) Sir did say I need to practice my throat skills:) mmmmmmm

(via sirsplayground)

written about 4 hours ago:
so you off to house of two next weekend to serve your owners???
subbiedi 38F
Wellington, New Zealand
written about 3 hours ago:
:D (giggles) yes! how did you know?

54F
New Zealand
written about 3 hours ago:
hehe thats for me to know and you to find out -you may be in for a surprise!!!!
subbiedi 38F
Wellington, New Zealand
written about 3 hours ago:
:( subbie hates surprises! and Mistress had a lil talk with me…so I think there will be no surprises:P
 54F
New Zealand
written about 3 hours ago:
Thats what you think !!!!
subbiedi 38F
Wellington, New Zealand
written about 3 hours ago:
oh come on! I fucken hate surprises!!!(only cause subbie sucks at having reactions…groans)…now you have me all curious
If we are talking about Sir and Mistress playing…I know she already told me…and they told me about the cage I will be sleeping in….am I warm with any of these things?
54F
New Zealand
written about 3 hours ago:
oh is that all!!!
subbiedi 38F
Wellington, New Zealand
written about 3 hours ago:
(giggles) now you are just working me up! :( I fucken hate surprises!!!….I am gonna go tell on you to Sir and Mistress!:P just kidding:P >:) muahahahahaha!
anyway I am off to the gym…will talk later
ciao for now
di:)
54F
New Zealand
written about 3 hours ago:
tell who you like lol shit happens
subbiedi 38F
Wellington, New Zealand
written 3 minutes ago:
(giggles) you are such a ttteeeaaassseee!
Is it a nice surprise…will I like it?
written 14 minutes ago:
well it wont be a surprise if you know and i dont know just think you in for surprise hehe

written about 4 hours ago:

so you off to house of two next weekend to serve your owners???

subbiedi 38F

Wellington, New Zealand

written about 3 hours ago:

:D (giggles) yes! how did you know?

54F

New Zealand

written about 3 hours ago:

hehe thats for me to know and you to find out -you may be in for a surprise!!!!

subbiedi 38F

Wellington, New Zealand

written about 3 hours ago:

:( subbie hates surprises! and Mistress had a lil talk with me…so I think there will be no surprises:P

 54F

New Zealand

written about 3 hours ago:

Thats what you think !!!!

subbiedi 38F

Wellington, New Zealand

written about 3 hours ago:

oh come on! I fucken hate surprises!!!(only cause subbie sucks at having reactions…groans)…now you have me all curious

If we are talking about Sir and Mistress playing…I know she already told me…and they told me about the cage I will be sleeping in….am I warm with any of these things?

54F

New Zealand

written about 3 hours ago:

oh is that all!!!

subbiedi 38F

Wellington, New Zealand

written about 3 hours ago:

(giggles) now you are just working me up! :( I fucken hate surprises!!!….I am gonna go tell on you to Sir and Mistress!:P just kidding:P >:) muahahahahaha!

anyway I am off to the gym…will talk later

ciao for now

di:)

54F

New Zealand

written about 3 hours ago:

tell who you like lol shit happens

subbiedi 38F

Wellington, New Zealand

written 3 minutes ago:

(giggles) you are such a ttteeeaaassseee!

Is it a nice surprise…will I like it?

written 14 minutes ago:

well it wont be a surprise if you know and i dont know just think you in for surprise hehe

(Source: geisha-wigs, via ilovegothgirls)

Talking to Sir about my newest butterfly boots
subbie: they are nice boots aye Sir:)
My Sir: yes indeed they are, get some practice in them filthy slut
subbie: :D gee you always give me butterflies and excite me with your comments(drool) I will Sir! I am a lil wobbly in them:)


Talking to Sir about my newest butterfly boots

subbie: they are nice boots aye Sir:)

My Sir: yes indeed they are, get some practice in them filthy slut

subbie: :D gee you always give me butterflies and excite me with your comments(drool) I will Sir! I am a lil wobbly in them:)

(via ilovegothgirls)

look! look! subbies new boots that Mistress found for her:)

aint they gorgeous!!!

going to pop off to the gym soon, going to be doing “kick” its my favourite class, martial arts mixed with boxing!

Good Morning My Sexies
hhhmmm today I have been to the gym, did “power” class, decided today I was going to up my weights…being my 3rd week. Normally I have 1kg either side…just starting off small, wouldn’t want to do any damage. I’ve been pumping those for two weeks and have found that my muscles are really starting to feel it and react…today I put them up to 2kg either side(back in the day when I use to exercise, I use to do 10kg dumbells, in 3months I have set myself a goal, that I better at least be doing 5kg either side) , when I was doing the squats today I really thought my legs were going to cave in, they felt like wobbly jelly, but I kept going anyway. I can only do 1kg either side for my biceps and triceps, they feel like the weakest part of my body atm…Loving the core part…I want to get my 6 pack back again, so this is the area that I really push!
Now I am back home, just had a lovely very hot shower….mmmmm I love it when the water hits my body and it stings and burns, like I’ve just been hit by a hard flogging(which Sir was kind enough to let me experience the other night) mmmmmm
Today its raining and I need to do an assignment…got three to do before the 31st gggrrr!!!

Good Morning My Sexies

hhhmmm today I have been to the gym, did “power” class, decided today I was going to up my weights…being my 3rd week. Normally I have 1kg either side…just starting off small, wouldn’t want to do any damage. I’ve been pumping those for two weeks and have found that my muscles are really starting to feel it and react…today I put them up to 2kg either side(back in the day when I use to exercise, I use to do 10kg dumbells, in 3months I have set myself a goal, that I better at least be doing 5kg either side) , when I was doing the squats today I really thought my legs were going to cave in, they felt like wobbly jelly, but I kept going anyway. I can only do 1kg either side for my biceps and triceps, they feel like the weakest part of my body atm…Loving the core part…I want to get my 6 pack back again, so this is the area that I really push!

Now I am back home, just had a lovely very hot shower….mmmmm I love it when the water hits my body and it stings and burns, like I’ve just been hit by a hard flogging(which Sir was kind enough to let me experience the other night) mmmmmm

Today its raining and I need to do an assignment…got three to do before the 31st gggrrr!!!

(Source: staggerlee13367)

This makes me think of Mistress:) when we were playing after Sir went to bed(lol Sir didn’t stay in bed for long, giggles) and Mistress tied me up.
Tonight I went back to the gym to do “step” class…This week I have been pushing myself a lil harder, its been great…I can actually feel my muscles ache,  everywhere!!
Good night My Sexies:*!
Got my nightly play and then I’ll be drifting off to blissful sleep probably filled with dreams of My Sir and Mistress:):):)

This makes me think of Mistress:) when we were playing after Sir went to bed(lol Sir didn’t stay in bed for long, giggles) and Mistress tied me up.

Tonight I went back to the gym to do “step” class…This week I have been pushing myself a lil harder, its been great…I can actually feel my muscles ache,  everywhere!!

Good night My Sexies:*!

Got my nightly play and then I’ll be drifting off to blissful sleep probably filled with dreams of My Sir and Mistress:):):)

(via desires-andso-much-more)